Interesting website find of the day about Demi Moore, who is also a raw foodist.
http://www.thegardendiet.com/news/demi.html

I have been home from school the past two days sick, I'm afraid I caught some weird 24 hour virus that just involved feeling overly fatigued.

The raw potluck that happened Sunday was great, Eric and I met a lot of really nice and supportive people, which I will introduce with pictures and descriptions later when I have the time. We even met someone that is going to give us a sort of Kombucha "starting kit", I'm sipping on some Synergy Kombucha right now, actually.

My step mother  lent me her food dehydrator, and I have been dehydrating a storm. My favorites have been kiwi, bananas coded with cinnamon, and tomatoes.

Yesterday, when I was feeling better, I made some Patte (I will write another entry with the recipe) and chocolate moose (for the second day in a row).

Here are some more characters, to pass the time:

Kate, one of my best friends for almost a year now. She is my age, but a class above me. Kate is the number one fencer in the state of Wisconsin, and she is one of my favorite models for my photography.



My mentor, Peter J Woods. Age twenty-one, and about to graduate from Marquette University.

The most sacred parts of my life are in the car with Peter while he is driving me home from Sheboygan. Last year it was when he brought me to tears while he sang along with Regina Spektor to "Samson", this year it was when we were re-evaluating the relationships in our lives.

This whole night was a powerful experience, from the Reptile Worship set that left me panting like a girl in the seventies who just was touched by one of the Beatles, to Jared's set that I sat and enjoyed, with Eric's brother Evan, his Antonie like vocalizations.

There was a set by a young man Andrew that was so beautiful, the reflections from cars down Erie Street in Sheboygan revolved around him like a finger to a globe in a classroom while he sat candle-lit and sang so softly into a traffic cone.

Peter's set was the set I have been waiting my whole life for, it was like he performed his normal sets backwards almost, but he produced the most breath taking performance I have ever seen. I couldn't bring myself to do anything but hug him after it, for allowing me to witness such a brilliant expression.

The positive energy surrounding me throughout the whole night, being with friends like Kate, Chris, Alex, Eric, Peter, and even my mother astounded me. I felt like I did before I really started becoming aware of my surroundings, in a fatalistic way, or too optimistically setting myself up for disappointment.

Eric sent me home with a bag of raw treats from the Vegan Potluck (that I prepared a salad for) including my own type of garden burger, a kind of cheese spread, and delicious crackers. He intended on sending me home with some dehydrated tomatoes, but his brother and I polished them off during the last musical performance.

Not to mention, my set was by far the best one I have played without using audience participation. I felt like I had no time barriers, although I played much shorter then I had attended on. That is something I definitley need to work on.

To conclude this post, I concluded my night feeling like there isn't necessarily a reason to be alive, but feeling like I didn't need one for the first time since I was twelve. It was almost like I had recovered from any attempted suicide of mine, I just hope that I am not disappointed in the hours to come.

Goodnight everyone.

 

Yesterday my raw coach called me rather upset! He was very disgruntled and angry at me for not getting my greens.  It definitely was true, and I started used more mixed greens in my fruit smoothies.



I went grocery shopping today! Some things I bought include a pound of dates, sea salt, cashews, walnuts, golden flax seeds, around twenty bananas, chives, arugula, and cashew butter.



In my inbox I got an e-mail from Eric. Today received more information:

"...

It turns out the best protein is from a raw form.  It turns out 50% of
the protein is lost in cooking.  Tryprtophan is very heat sensitive.
If these proteins that you come into your body, probably shouldn't be
from a factory farm, since the tumor rating is 80% from those animals.
 But don't worry about the problems.  This is all about the solutions.
 You eat raw plant protein, you probably need half the protein you
would need.
 
People know somethings wrong with cooking their food.  The number one
source of atmospheric polution.  Do you know what it is?  Its not cars
its grills, restaruants, and cooking fires.  In fact 48% of the soot
in south east asian is from cooking fires, 25% is from cars.

..."



The way Eric is giving me information really works, he knows how dear Asia is to my heart, and he knows how much information to give me at a time so that I will remember it.



(Cute scarf, I like it!)

I'm feeling much better now, but still will need to get lots of rest tonight. I visited my ex-vegan friend Catherine today at her work and she told me that she was supportive of me, especially because of the extreme I got into (going from not even a vegetarian to full out raw vegan). It felt nice to be able to talk to her, especially about the pretentious vegans we both have encountered (and grown to love, or to hate).

I'm going out on the town with Kate, and her boyfriend Chris tonight. And I might get to see Eric tomorrow!

Last night Brad dropped off a lot of gear, including his TX-7. He is going to let me borrow his Polly too when I get the strength to pick it up from his house.

He also gave me a Yamaha FB-01! How ridiculous is that! All I need is a proper midi controller, and the possibilities are endless.

Speaking of possibilities, Eric sent me a list of greens I should look into for the new year along with this use full tool for me to use...


http://www.ariete.net/catalogo_06/index_en.asp

The steak toaster! Oh deezus christ, who actually would purchase one of these? Its sold on a website that also sells hair driers, in case that makes your purchase seem more logical. I wouldn't mind getting anything from their Disney line though, its quite adorable.

I'm afraid I'm living off of oatmeal now, but I'm bringing some fruits and vegetables for lunch at school today. Really minimalistic, the way my stomach can handle foods right now. Hopefully today won't be too bad, I get to see my friend Kate and its my old friend's birthday today, and I have a card for him.

Again, I'll leave you with some words of wisdom from my coach...along with some toasters...

"Going raw is all about adventure and exploration in the world of rich, organic foods."

Its around 10:08, and I just spent a lot of time enjoying the lunar eclipse. I also got a call from two friends (Ambar and Nicholas H.) I haven't talked to in months minutes before the complete eclipse, so thats a great sign!



My new years resolution is to eat more greens, amongst other things. I feel much better after putting out cheese for the rat zodiac, and seeds, dried bananas, and preserved plums. I am going to hop out of bed in the morning and get to school!

I wish you good fortune!

You know how teenage girls tend to dream about their future, becoming a mother, or not becoming a mother, etc. I always planned on adopting an Asian child, specifically from China, that I could incorporate Chinese language (because I am learning it in school) and English into their vocabulary. Also, I would incorporate both cultures into their lifestyle, as a family that adopts should do.

Anyways, to get to the point, I really just wanted to share this website with anyone who is reading my journal about my raw veganism!

http://www.2modern.com/


Here are some of my favorite products that you can find on the website:


















I made some banana/orange juice pudding and had some banana/date/walnut/honey ice cream today!

"Greens are the hidden piece to your raw puzzle. One pound of certain greens can give you your RDA of all nine essential amino acids, all the protein you need."

-Eric

Today is the last day of the Chinese New Year celebration. What happens today will also reflect my year to come, so I have to start it out right. Nope! I came home from school sick again. I fell asleep on the floor in the hallway outside of my classroom! Tisk!

When I got home I took a nap, and just woke up and ate more oatmeal (my second bowel today). I'm finishing off my smoothie, and I think my mother is making me ice cream downstairs. Hurray!

I just checked my E-Mail to find some words of support and wisdom from my coach, which is always endearing.

I'm feeling better then I did yesterday! But I didn't get to see Kate at school!

I'll leave you with some words and a picture my coach sent me...

"...get that chlorophyll pumping through your veins."

Its around 8:50 PM, and I am about to get to sleep. I just took some Advil PM (so I can reach REM tonight, and get more then three hours of sleep). I made a smoothie tonight with dates, coconut, orange juice, and a banana. The smoothie was delicious, I am saving the rest for breakfast tomorrow.

Tonight Eric gave me some names to research:
David Wolfe
Ani Phyo
Angela Stokes
Matt Monarch


(Is that his dinner?)

And he assigned me homework to get more iron, so that bag of pumpkin seeds is going to school with me tomorrow!

Hopefully by tomorrow morning I will be feeling better, especially with all of the vitamins I took and seeds I ate.

Goodnight everyone!

A conversation with my friend Catherine:
[18:40] curbstompcops: how can you eat oatmeal???
[18:40] curbstompcops: aint dat coooked?
[18:40] fluffchickhair: I'm around 70 percent raw this week.
[18:40] fluffchickhair: It sucks.
[18:41] fluffchickhair: I need it for my immune system though, because I can't stomach any vegetables.

A few people are starting to believe that this is some pro-anorexia blog. Yes, because anorexic people eat enough oatmeal to become a horse.

Here is a picture I took of myself today:

Its around 6:27 PM now, I am talking to Kira on Facebook, along with Jack and Brad on Meebo. I had more oatmeal, and sunflower seeds. I ate around five carrots and some mixed greens, but I couldn't stomach it for very long, and had to discontinue eating my delicious salad.

The cranberry/apple juice doesn't make me feel as great as it did yesterday, I'm afraid. I ate a whole pineapple today too.



I hope to get to school tomorrow, and that I don't periodically feel worse again!

Its around 10:19 AM right now, I just got out of my mother's bed (I ended up downstairs last night, I needed cold medication and couldn't get it myself successfully)(I took Air-Bourne). I feel awful today, I have the worst cold, and I am so congested. I had oatmeal again, and a banana. I've been taking the following the past few days: Two B Supplements, Two Calcium Supplements, an Herbal Energy Booster, a Vitamin C, and a Multi-Vitamin.



My mother is afraid that I am burning my stomach out, but I feel much better after taking them. Maybe its psychological, but it is helpful either way.

I'm returning to bed, upstairs in my room, after I get another banana. It looks like it snowed again, keep warm!

Its around 9:44 PM at night, and I am about to get to sleep. Today I had the other half of the Honeydew melon that I was saving for today, and an array of bananas with cashews and some oatmeal (that I was forced into by my mother, having a bad cold and all).

I stayed pretty raw, and finished off the night with some cranberry and apple juice with mulling spices. It was delicious!



Today Eric and I determined that I have been eating really simplistically. I haven't made a smoothie in two days, or had any of my left over ones. It feels comfortable, but it is hard to stomach anything that isn't a melon, cashews, or a grain. I'm sure I'll snap out of it.

Thank you Alex for telling me to keep this up, I really appreciate it! And thank you Eric for checking it out.

Let me tell you a little about the story of how I became a raw vegan, and introduce some characters...

I ran into someone I had played a few shows with at the Outpost, a member of Reptile Worship of sorts, we reintroduced each other, and thats when I became close to Eric...


(Photograph by Nora Bryne)

Eric is twenty-three, he is my raw coach. He convinced me to become a raw vegan, through all of the health benefits. I wouldn't be able to survive through this without him. He is going on his first year.

My friend Alex, eighteen years old, completely supportive of this, is there for me whenever I can't speak with Eric. Alex lives much closer to me, and goes to the Milwaukee School of Engineering. I frequently visit him with snacks for him and his dorm floor, sometimes I feel like their mother, but at other times their raw vegan daughter. Alex is not raw.


(Alex with his kitty, at his parent's house)

And last but not least, my friend (or pseudo-brother) Brad, twenty one years old. He isn't really supportive of this, but he is always a phone call away for support.

First week: I was starving constantly! I craved cheeses and breads the most, but made it through successfully.



Second week: I felt ill, but less malnourished. My energy level was significantly lower.



Third week: I constantly craved cheese burgers, and came down with a cold. I began to notice a lot of weight loss, and began developing acne (something I have never had problems with).